sometimes they can say if you want to be happy then just be it. but its not that easy. its pretty hard at times. especially if youre your own reason why you cant say ‘I’m happy’ easily. 

my prom dress is awaiting me in the mail box :) 
now if someone will either give me the mail key or go get it then i can finally be happy with it, i literally kept checking the tracking on it like thirty times a day and its finally hereeee. 

only cause i finished watching tangled yesurday finally. this is probably one of my favorite parts.

(via agentrosetyler)

i had this dream lastnight that made me wake up at almost three shaking with my heart pounding scared to take the blanket off my face or hear any little sound. i dont know why i was even so scared. but thats like the most scared feeling ive been since i was like six or maybe i was more scared than then. i dont know.

im just so unhappy living here. 

i need to leave.

i could keep typing what’s sad between us but its such a long list

and its all because im not worth your attention anymore.

i miss our friendship, but im not going to try and fix it when you’re truely the blame and it wouldn’t be worth it.

its so weird seeing people i actually had relations getting engaged, married, pregnanted and all this other stuff and we dont even talk anymore. 

and theyre all still pretty nearish my age. growing up and taking all these new responsibilities and such is coming fast. high schools almost over. kinda. in a way, yeah.

felt all throughout my body. 

i dont mean to. 
especially with ones i care about.
im getting no response.
& i feel terrible and i dont know what to do now. 
i hate myself for not being more smart about things and not thinking throughly and not knowing better.
everything i saw comes off bad. not even the way i mean for it.
 

(via c-itystreets)

and im crying.

im so tired of everything.

im tired of being asked

where ive applied to. & what am i doing with my life.

im tired of lies and not being trusted.

im tired of not being happy and not being able to live MY life.

my dad ruins everything.

but he got me a car a week ago, and im hella enjoying it.

thanksgiving is going to suck though.

im pretty sure its like a normal night tomorrow. 
i mean, theres not going to be turkey, ham or mash potatoes & whatever other suches thanksgiving usually holds. i better be able to leave tomorrow. id like to have a semi-enjoyable thanksgiving with other people with other food.  

making the rest of your life seem so dull when youre not with me. <3